Feb 27 2006

Stopping to smell the flowers

I’ve been deliberating as to when and what I was going to share, but she took the lead, so here I go:

For 27 years now I’ve been traveling through life waiting to find ‘the one’ woman I was to share the rest of my life with. There have been many possibilities, some failed starts, and a handful of painful stops. The term ‘crash and burn’ applied to my romantic attempts for a few years there… you girls know who you are.

In the last few years, as I’ve sought after God with a renewed focus (after 7 years of wandering) I’ve seen my values and priorities change dramatically. The women I used to swoon over now barely register, or actually trigger some level of disgust. The women I used to pass over are some of my best friends and closest confidants.

As I was thinking of how to convey the most recent wrinkle in the ongoing saga, a floral metaphor came to mind:

We spend all day looking at the bulbs/seeds and looking at the card (surface) with a picture of what the plant might look like. The word might there is the key: some bulbs are duds, and some grow into completely different flowers due to a mis-sorting along the way.

Then there are the flowers that have started growing, but not blossomed yet. They are just budding… teasing us with when they will blossom.

So… as I looked around at bulbs (potential relationships) around me a flower blossomed right in front of me… and it took me awhile to even see it. I had to … stop and smell the flower (sorry).

All that to say… I’ve found someone right under my nose. Our relationship has been growing for over a year now, and has recently blossomed into something more than friendship.

It’s a sweet fragrance indeed, and I’m excited to see where God’s will and life’s path will lead us.

This weekend she posted this quote… I read it today and just about died:

Then the time came when the risk it took
To remain tight in a bud was more painful
Than the risk it took to blossom.
Anais Nin

Feb 27 2006


Goldmine (from the Self Titled CD) is one of my favorite Violet Burning tunes (it made it to #3 on the fan poll).

What I really love about Goldmine is that it’s a song of repentace about getting angry at God, telling Him you hate Him, then apologizing and wanting to the relationship to be restored (“sit inside His heart”).

I’ve done that a few times… thanks to Michael Pritzl for putting it the words of my heart to such amazing music. He hit the nail on the head.


Take me to the other side
Show me all those things inside
By the light of the moon
Hold my shaking hand
Be close to me,
I do not understand

Being like angels
Wrapped up in my head
And wanting to sit inside your heart
Wanting to sit inside your heart

Goldmine, I see that you are bright
Don’t say that it’s not worth a fight
Will I ever shine in your eyes
Don’t leave me, oh don’t hide tonight

I don’t really hate you
I hate what I do
I’m wanting to sit inside your heart
Wanting to sit inside your heart

(no matter what) Words that you say
I could never forget you
Don’t turn away
Let me inside you
Words that you say
I could never forget you

Under your skin I’ll go
I will always love you
Into your eyes I’ll go
I will always

If I could be where you are

Love me, move me
Crush me, bend me
Please don’t break me
Goldmine, goldmine
If I could be where you are
If I could find what you hide
You leave me breathless
Behind your eyes
Don’t hide your eyes
You leave me breathless
Behind your eyes
Dazzled and breathless
Don’t hide your eyes…

Words and Music by Michael J Pritzl

Feb 23 2006

The MacBook has arrived

In fact, I’m typing this post on it. Lovely.


Feb 21 2006

MacBook: Shipped

A few weeks early — Go Apple!

It’s in Shanghai at the moment.

Ship date
Feb 21, 2006- 3:18 PM

Estimated delivery
Feb 24, 2006- 10:30 AM

Feb 20 2006

In whose name?

Recently, John posted about Extreme Makover: Home Edition in a post callled: Kingdom of God: REVEALED!

I didn’t see the specific episode he’s referring to, but I’ve had a rant about EM:HO percolating for awhile..and this brought it to the surface:

Extreme Makover: Home Edition- In whose name?

Extreme Home makeover, despite all the good things it does, is just a big fat commercial for Sears (and it’s other sponsors).

Sure the Church of Jesus Christ could learn a thing or two, but take away the corporate sponsorship and see what happens to EM: HO. Will they continue to lavish things upon people? I don’t think so.

What makes me sad is that every day thousands of people (social workers, aid workers, county and government employees, churches, etc.) work hard to improve the lives of people like those helped by EM:HO. They work with limited resources, ridiculously small budgets, and paltry salaries. They get little thanks, mostly grief from their clients (the very people they try to help).

ABC lavishes a luxury house on a family (because the ‘deserve it’ due to their hardship) and gets mad props for helping one single family each week. We reward ABC with our attention (a valuable thing these days) our dollars, and our praise.

Now, these families have it hard. Really hard. Many have been socked in the gut repeatedly by bad circumstances… but is building them a gigantic house with a flat screen monitor in every room the right solution to their problems? Or is is just a nice shiny veneer that allows ABC and America to feel good about itself?

Does ABC and EM: HO serve the people or itself?

Here’s a word picture I got the other day that’s stuck with me:

Is it simply spreading a layer of frosting over dung and pretending it doesn’t stink?

PS- Maybe I’m just a cold hearted jerk, but I ask you this: are outcomes the only measure? Or is it important how and why people are helped?

Feb 18 2006

Buy “Drop Dead” now

The Violet Burning cranks out another masterpiece.

Drop Dead
The Violet Burning: Drop Dead

Go ahead, do it now. You won’t be disappointed.

If you’re the kind of person who needs to listen an album first… you can do that here.

PS- if they’re going to be in concert anywhere near you… go! They’re sounding better than ever these days. Last night’s show at Club 3 Degrees was Amazing (with a capital A). Goldmine was transcendant. Honestly — I got chills.